A Disciple's Thread

[Blanco.]

bruhhhhhhhhh

[Toobs]

@Toobs I never seen you write... drop something

thats cuz i never got into the text shit...all beats and audio...

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bruhhhhhhhhh

its gonna take more than a bruuhhhh to cover this shit

[A Disciple]

Blanco is on my blocked list - so what they talking about that you quoted?

[Toobs]

Blanco is on my blocked list - so what they talking about that you quoted?

he said he thinks youre actually a man named Vinnie that works for a pizza shop up the street that he orders from, and have been stalking him on and offline for the past 2 years, brrruuuuhhhhh

[A Disciple]

Must be their guilty conscience speaking... you know talking about them self trying but pointing to somebody else.

[Blanco.]

he said he thinks youre actually a man named Vinnie that works for a pizza shop up the street that he orders from, and have been stalking him on and offline for the past 2 years, brrruuuuhhhhh

its actually been 9 years

[A Disciple]

I guess the comment I was talking about been deleted.

[A Disciple]

You don't have to read them all I can show you which ones and the rest? This my sky drive cause I've lost so much thru the years. Like my notebook DEAD UP not realizing how many people can be in it. I hope one day all the ones they deleted like my Wu forever track 10 and the ones here can be fixed. I hope if shit do pop off I get a say what is seen and whats not.

[A Disciple]

I'm not bowing to some sick bitch who has attached herself to me because she's obsessed with you. You have NO clue how gross it is and feels. You have NO CLUE what they have done to me and get away with every fucking time.

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How did they even know about me to begin with?

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I have to run to the liquor store again now cause I don't feel good AGAIN. I'm tired of being stalked. I'm tired of being their trash can. I'm tired of not feeling like myself. And I'm tired of them demanding I be insane for their cause now too. I'm the one that doesn't deserve to be happy? I'm fucking tired of no protection or defense. 1 good day to 365 bad, now I can't even be myself by myself either. Nah pretend like you don't understand what I'm talking about or tell me it's all in my head just like them. EVEN WITH FACTS NO ONE WOULD HELP OR BELIEVE ME... how the fuck does that even happen?

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Like I'm going to sit here and suffer for their sick entertainment.

[A Disciple]

I may not had a say or choice at 14.. but I’m 41 now - who is still making my decisions for me

[A Disciple]

Can I at least just be my self in my own zone so I can fucking even think... I thought crazy was crazy I didn’t ever expect it to all make sense one day. Get them tricks and them, and them, and their side, or their side the fuck up off me PLEASE!!! I think i get it... and nah, no way strangers or even the assholes that fucked my head up to begin with going to still demand their say or way. Hanging on display... yeah that’s what I chose? Not at all...

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You left me sitting here dealing with the sickest fucking shit instead... why? Nobody gonna sit here and demand I be on their side - I’m tired of not even getting a say

[A Disciple]

Remember when picking out your spot to watch the fire works stay towards the back by that wood thing they put the beach chairs into it.

And on another note... Ill remain anonymous but if you sought me out just to leverage a “fight” ... you found the wrong bitch (I swear)

And on another note “peace, trust, liberty, freedom and good shit”

When are we all gonna write and create again?

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I ain’t have a banana daiquiri since... but I wanna... I’ll save that for that “every blouse, every bracelet” speech though...

[A Disciple]

I can't stand feeling like this... I don't feel like myself again.

[A Disciple]

Not like that at all. Just letting you know I woke up and remembered and ever since been getting my ass kicked and need help

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It’s very painful too besides the stress...

[A Disciple]

Keep it Moving
https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q...3236EEBD8AED70


Love, there’s too many facets
Now I’m even more confused
That’s what coming in from the side gets
Don’t think I’d ever choose
You wanted that throat, I showed you it was you
Dreaming the whole time, then look what you do
Coming from parallel worlds, you right
How I get so ghetto?
That fight…
When my mom got slapped back to poor
Cause she left, she didn’t obey…
Oh believe me I know that you know
It makes me hate it even more everyday
Look at us now, how we all change places
Sitting in my car riding home thinking about all them faces
Knowing…
Who believes a black man about his plight
Especially when they see the girl sitting next to him is white

“Must not know who she’s dealing with… etc”
Let the chorus play

It can’t be right?

I know inside you have more love for her
But you never told me and I won’t assume what we were
The night of the concert you didn’t invite me to
Pacing all night, the next day I found that hairband too
If it wasn’t for when that time you finally slapped me
It was for the reasons I snatched them dishes and put them on the balcony
Like you said… who is schooling who
When he woke me up to give me a bite too
“You was really the realest I just think your pride is just”
Maybe in the reverse you see it was you
But you left me just standing there so confused by what you do
And when I fucked him, I felt them snap me out of the spell
So don’t pretend you don’t know how the snowflake fell
I can tell…
How am I supposed to trust you now?
Your eyes still be killing me
Like I don’t know you’re still walking… how?
I’m lucky still parts of you be feeling me

Let the chorus play

The slow mo… that’s how I saw the gun
And when I screamed and you all ducked
It was god that made them run
We got it done…
Ever think that is for all it was
Cause I always gain a new enemy for all that this does

I just wanna have fun

You always asking why I write so dark
That’s like asking a dog not to bark
But maybe that means you read a word or two
So one day I know you’ll read this one and realize the wish was for you
I take it back too

“I know my days are numbered… “ let the song play out.



… Get them stupid dumb ass bitches off me.