To: Ready to Meet Him

[A Disciple]

Ready to Meet Him



“May we each walk the paths we have chosen”

Lord, we both know the only reason why I came back home
It took many brethren to rescue me, please let me face it alone if I roam
Just how heavy the stakes were I didn’t realize
Who I became when I left I could hardly recognize
But I started to see it…
I believed their book and who I was, was wrong
Now that I ran I don’t know where it is I belong
Too scared to be betrayed but the betrayal came from me
Can you understand if I never left I never would truly see

IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN I WHO COMMANDED YOU

WHAT DID I SAY
It’s in my heart stay true

WHAT DID YOU DO
Became too scared to even talk to you

WHAT HAVE YOU SEEN
My family go to all lengths to make me see

WHAT DO YOU WANT
To finish our plan and live out my destiny

LIKE YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER YOU WERE TORN BETWEEN THE TWO IF YOU CANT MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL HOW DO YOU EXPECT THEM TOO

I forgive and I love because I understand what the making of peace that they dream of
But they call us demons because we fight for the darkest of knights
And because we disagree with them, they with withstand our rights
While living with you I was allowed to be real
While living with them I began not to feel
All they did was try to down their brother
Even I was wrong, mad, because she didn’t chose work over being a mother
He stole my soul, the core being of everything I believe in
Even told me to send you away and deny my own gift I was given

THALL SHALL NOT STEAL
but I was so thirsty and no one would help me

THALL SHALL NOT MURDER
I only wanted to stop them from humiliating me

THALL SHALL NOT TAKE MY NAME IN VEIN EVERY ENEMY IS A DEMON IN SOMEONE ELSES GAME

Lord I was wrong , but thru the fog I knew the difference between the two
And if you must take my pinky or head by the sword I honor that too
BUT PLEASE ONLY YOU
I am no longer afraid to stand true to who I am
No longer afraid to fight cause I believe in for what we stand
I don’t want to take for granted that you will just forgive me
But please try to realize how complicated this was to see

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED (pride)
Vanity isn’t wrong if it makes you feel good

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED (envy)
Jealousy only inspires as it should

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED (wrath)
Sometimes we need that fire to motivate us to fight for what is right

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED (sloth)
Be compassionate to those that are slower than others

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED (greed)
Aspire to want plenty so we can share with our brothers

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED (gluttony)
Sometimes it takes going too far to turn us off so we back away

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED (lust)
What’s life if not lived passionately

WHAT HAVE YOU LEARNED?
To my own heart be true… and that my life only exists to serve you

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The other one they posted was a poorly edited version of a poem I had on my space and I have no clue who or why they posted it and changed this one on here to that… this is the original though and you’re lucky I had it printed for real cause my ghost walked me with X

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I wish he wasn’t dead I could’ve learned and solved a lot like my silent screaming

[Pharaohs Army]

Unreal Discipe. Like save this in a doc sis. I’m gonna PM you my email address.
Just on an eyeball skim. I gotchu.

[A Disciple]

Nice… thanks

[Pharaohs Army]

Nice… thanks

Right.. No prob Discipe... yeah on that old speechless/ then nice elab joke i'll get back to u soon on the 2nd half pretty much exact 50% read so yeah and some mite be for u and most for me & all etc

so tempted on that sick #1pac with outlawz best of 3 Cuts remixes etc but of course found a new one randomly almost not stoned ...new to me, not new song or beat

[Pharaohs Army]

Right.. No prob Discipe... yeah on that old speechless/ then nice elab joke i'll get back to u soon on the 2nd half pretty much exact 50% read so yeah and some mite be for u and most for me & all etc

so tempted on that sick #1pac with outlawz best of 3 Cuts remixes etc but of course found a new one randomly almost not stoned ...new to me, not new song or beat

fuck it i bored self battled myself for a few years so like i mayyy get to this late AM or just w,e or just say f. u for this bye etc. i donno lets play guessing games of variance or stuff and not telling stuff and get jokey and playful sure w.e 4ever or never how bout that opener /closer maybe brb(soon or later or never) type deal sis?

yeah 303 PM here's a nice copy paste sis cuz u k w i am done writing for a whiiiiiiiiiile

i'll leave it to you as an internet browser and blogger if u wanna peep the details

love always and always such sentiments~

Originally Posted by Diablo/BARON MYND/LARS/sral/sraL/BOOM/clutbuck/Dank/5.75 %on a maybe timeless nampley View Post
quick key. nothing much
You fucking suck.
I was always your least favourite. You would never admit it
Favorite now. Here I am spitting?
but I saw how you treated the rest of my siblings.
I guess I was different. Course. Now you know. Yet you ask for more. Why? The reveal was new to you. A peacock Plumes. Is it Freudian. As Buddha who was also(perhaps) The middle child. Bottom bunk of the bed
never fulfilling the heights my older brother had set.
Yes and Disciple now knows as oldest they've.....
(let's just say praps they've monetized their talents...)
The youngsters. Relationships. A decade. A mortgate. My sister lives in a housing market second only to San Fransisco, which Spitz or B_T can give you all the variables on WHY, politics, economics, No. No fuck their cunts. Hard. As said, Zygote is still up on short-term trends....while he PMs Answer's deaf spreadsheet for Bell Curve and other longterm Statistical Analysis....Which never would even be needed here if not for Freaks and Anomolies. I'd aassure you ALLLLLLLLL U KNOW WHAT FRANK
#1 ALL TIME GOT TIED WITH LARS AND NOT FUCKFACE DIRECTOR SHIT (U LIKE THIS UNI YEAH U LOVE IT LOL)
#1 ALL TIME TIED WITH LARS IS JESODIST AND JESOSIST WILL NEVER BE FUCKING TOUCHED EVER U IDIOTS WHY DO YOU THINK PPL ALLOWED THE PSAM OF OUR SYPHERS OBSERVE, SAINT YOU FUCKING BORED BITCH SPIT ME AND JESO BATTLING TO INFINITY WHILE AJ CANT EVEN ACCESS IT................................................ ....................editor ego has become enraged and will edit fucking finisht shit shit later LARS Jesodist fucking owns everything in the world of writing oVer his LAME BUDDHA WHO COULDNT EVEN BREAK A TIE WITH DRUGHEAD FUCKFACE RETIREMENT WISE
The younger one slept in his own room, you never gave a th
p.s. discipe... weirdo writer/rapper sickos prolly ate cereal for brekk or some candy for snak

You let them play with balls in the house and fight on the rug,
They used to get away with more than I ever could.
I tried being goody two-shoes, but even those had been second hand
guess following right in his footsteps is as close as I’ll get to that.
While Golden boy gets the laughs, it’s like you aren’t aware I exist
people forget it completely unless they’re looking to compare me to him.
It’s so unfair how my little brother gets what’s he wants
yet I’m the one called a big baby when I tell you it’s wrong
I’ve never been one to ask for much because I know I won’t get it
so I lowered my expectations to help me cope with rejection.
There’s no use pretending you love us half as much the same
even the candles on my cake were reused from the last one that you made.
I was an after thought.
A change of mind.
You took another go
when you had another baby so the first wouldn’t be alone.
You say you love me but you don’t care. I see it in your eyes
hear it in the lies when im put to bed and you sneer at me “Goodnight,”
It’s clear who your divided attention is on, my big brother Austin
must have mixed up your offspring again, cause I don’t even like cinnamon frosting.
This must be one of those days where a full house feels like an empty room
I’ve got a lot of gifts, but all I wanted in the present sense is…
You pretended to care, but only cared what the others thought
shoved me in a corner like something unimportant and barely looked at me at all.
Your other sons were more academic, heads buried in the back of a book,
I was just as good at sports — but that never mattered as much.
I’ve lived in the shadow my brother created ever since
playing second fiddle in a band of brothers upstaged by next of kin.
I hated every minute. I have since the day I was born
In my high chair I learned my place at the table before I was able to crawl.
It’s my birthday and you’ve ordered the cheapest cake on the shelf
paid someone else for the hassle of having to make one yourself.
They layered a velvet sponge no one likes to dress it up as something new
and covered up the truth just like my mother used to do.
Underneath the boutique exterior, at the heart of the cake you’ll
expose how dark and distasteful or hardened it makes you.
No matter how marbled the layers used, there’s still some margin between
I’m starting to see now that, after all, we are what we eat.
No party’s complete without its cake.
We’re family but none of you are friends.
honestly it’s better that you’re not here.
I don’t blame you for not wanting to attend.
It’s probably for the best.
You can stop with the pretence,
I wasn’t that offended anyway, just glad your empty promises were kept.
I stop for a deep breath to inhale through the nostrils fill my chest
I take a minute to make a wish… that every last fucking one of you were dead.



Happy birthday to me.

<3
why im expling u all and U and lars know htis i just gootta type it cuz this RHEAD IS MINES OURS
U TOUCH ME AND DICIPLE AND LARZ THREAD HERE ME AND LARS FUCKIN GO TO TOWN ON UR MIND HOEVER WE WANT PLAYFULLY WHILLL DEEP AND DARK
the whole 9 from writers from 98 who dont fucking care and troll 4-9 IDS all nigth ya kow
so yea

[NoNun2]

I’m a bullet point girl… if you sent long drawn out emails at work it went to the bottom of the pile

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Glad this post went to the original writing when I want to read what you all posted on it before?

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Get that bitch off of and out my body PLEASE